Yeah - thanks for all the emails or comments. I'm glad my posts are inspirational - it helps to know that. but really all - I'm not the strong - but as Craig has been trying to teach more for almost 13 years - Fake it till you make it! I have no choice but to fake it at this time.
Our agency did send the link to the Voa posting or article today - they say there are lot of rumors out there and won't really be able to update us until they have the facts. I really respect that and I know they said they were trying to get the truth a while ago. so I have to believe that. I just continue to pray that they don't shut this program down. Not sure what we'd do then.
anyhow - to all the other families out there - we can just support each other - I know I'm getting that - lets just hope we all make it.
so I'll continue to fake being a happy mommy for Nate tonight and read a bedtime story and go up stairs to our room and either fall asleep to HGTV or go cry like I really want. doesn't really help I'm alrady down this week anyhow - turning a year older doesn't make me happier - just realize I still don't have my dream - 2 kids and that white picket fence! I remember that was a topic Craig brought up when we first started talking - what I wanted out of life and by when - its not for a lack of trying - all those fertility drugs were another route we tried.
so good night all - I"ll go pray
OH - a lot of peple are taking Wednesday to fast and pray for everything inEthiopia - please do that if you can!
gail
2 comments:
I can honestly say that over the last 14 months, the last week has been the hardest for me. I understand what you are going through. It is so difficult to stay positive with the thoughts on all the rumors in our head. I know that all we can do is pray that MOWA sees how this will not help anyone.
Sarah
Thanks Sarah - I know YOU know this as much as many others - hang in there! You will get a referral soon!
GAil
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