So this year Mother's day is harder than normal. You may think this very odd that my dream of having a second child just came true 2 months ago today. Don't get me wrong, we are BLESSED - I AM BLESSED! I have a beautiful and wonderful loving husband and two amazing boys! I am so complete its not even funny! My career, my family - its all amazing.
However if you read this blog from the VERY beginning - yes there is a LOT of information - we started this 8 years ago - about this time too! My mom - well she was sick, our cell phone bill was over $400 as I kept calling my relatives and family friends telling the same story every day - how she's doing? What her blood counts were, etc. So in his amazing way - Craig started this for us to communicate with family and friends on her condition, ultimate death and the birth of our first son Nate - and yes this all took place in under 3 months!Then we used it to share about Nate!
So we took time off - and then you see about Ron - Craig's dad's illness and death (he was very sick for very long) and his mom's fight with cancer! WE used this to communicate. Then in 2010 - I started it up and redesigned this for our future child #2! We all have known now to be Curtis Samuel.
So yes - a lot of emotions, two mom's in heaven, and now a child who was motherless for all but one month that we know! So yes - I miss my mom! My beautiful angel in heaven watching over us, taking care of us in ways we do not know or understand yet. And we have Liz - she's amazing in so many ways as well (and our grandmas) - But now we have a woman somewhere in Ethiopia that gave me a son! I do not know her name, I do not know what she looks like, I know she was from Dire Dawa, Ethiopia. She gave birth to this amazing little boy in April 2011 - and now he's living in the US with us - and now called Curtis Samuel! And he is so loved and so happy. But what is she thinking tomorrow? Yes - they do not celebrate mother's day in Ethiopia - but what if they do?
And then ALL these children not only in Ethiopia - but all over the world - MOTHERLESS! How my heart breaks for them. Craig and I had our mom's into our 30's - we have over 30years with them - it SUCKS they died so young - both only 58! Yes -it SUCKS! But then I hear of kids that are under 15 that have mom's pass away - how that must really suck! And again - just the orphans - they never had a mom! Its so hard to understand. Everyone will be talking about mom's tomorrow - and yes that is great. I loved mine dearly and I'm thankful to be a mom! (oh yeah - I should have a blog about infertility and life trying to just HAVE a child). But my heart breaks for those like me that don't have a mom. That never did, or are missing theirs this year.
Please keep that in mind when you wish people happy mother's day tomorrow. You never know which child lost their mom to cancer in the last year? Or who was adopted and doesn't know their birth mom? Or a child that is in foster care, that has an amazing family loving them now - but struggles not knowing where they will end up or if their mom will be in their lives. I just have been thinking of all these people today!
when you are talking about mom's at church tomorrow - say a prayer for those that did one of the biggest sacrifices in the world - give their child up for adoption. Say a pray for those children that have no mother, the orphans, foster kids - children who's mom just died. They need extra prayers to get through the day.
And yes - I challenge you to read our story here - go back to May 2004 in the archive of this blog - you will see how it sucked for my brother, father and I! And Craig too! we've all lost them.
I love all those angels in heaven, mom, grandma, Liz! You are amazing women and we will never forget you! Flowers tomorrow are in your memory and honor! Happy mothers day!
Gail
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