Keeping the Faith

Today I was reading another blog - and its posts from other agencies stated that what happened to us has possibly happened to other families.  It is so sad - but their agency was told the kids already referred and paper work submitted to courts will be evaluated - but still probably go through!  That is very positive news.  I'm hoping it is true - I keep picturing little K's face in my mind and just pray that God's wisdom guides us through this journey.  Its not easy for me - waiting and not knowing - I'm one for surprises- never have been  but not much I can do about this one.  I know we will have another son and really like the name Curtis for our boy.  So we'll see.  I just want to see his face - and last night I dreamed that was K! So then reading this other blog today - it sounded promising.

I know when I've talked to our agency - they've been positive - they don't know what's going to happen - and I really appreciate their honesty.  I swear I can hear the sadness in their voices - maybe not sadness but they feel the pain for every family and child.

so I just keep the faith!  It seems like lots of devotionals I've read this week seemed to teach me to just keep the faith and trust in God's plans.  He knows what's going to happen - we do not.  In one devotional it said that sometimes we force things to work out the way we want and its not going to work or it will be hard - that is because that's not the way God wanted it to be!  And if we just sit back, enjoy the ride (emotional or not) and follow God's path - trust him - things work out.  so I'm doing that.  I keep thinking of the saying and I may not get it totally accurate -

"If you love something set it free.  If its meant to be, it will come back to you" - that's my motto at the moment.  at least for the last few days. I love little K with all my heart, I can SEE him in our family!  I can see him being called Curt - I want to go hold him, make him smile, listen to him laugh - all of that!  so I'm trusting God knows what is best for our family.

I pray for all the families being touched by these orphanage shut downs right now - its very difficult for us all.  IF you are one of them -feel free to reach out - its helped talking to another family that's going through this with us.

For everyone else - please pray for the children stuck in this mess.  I just keep thinking  - we have shelter, clothes, FOOD and WATER!  they may not have all that.  with the drought and famine in the Horn of Africa - many people are suffering every second of every day.  Many are dying - kids, babies and adults.  But the number of kids lost in this UNDER the age of 5 breaks my heart.  Anyone that ever questions WHY did we pick Africa - Ethiopia to adopt from - well that's ONE reason of many!  God led us here - He knows these kids suffer and their parents love them so much, they will do what ever it takes to make sure their kids are fed and have water and survive.  I want to do those parents honor by protecting their blessed child as our own!  Its just one reason - no one can replace the love of the parents in Ethiopia - but we can give just as much love and caring for a child - they will be my son for ever and ever.  I will love him to heaven and back - 999,999,999,999,999... times - Nate and I make up the biggest number we can think of - THAT many times to heaven and back!  Basically infinity - but he couldn't grasp that number.

so all this said- keep the faith!  that's one constant we do have. God loves us and these kids - he will take care of us.  Do not let the little negatives get us down - I believe that's the devil trying to crack me sometimes.  I'm NOT going to let him win!  I have my down days - trust me - some of you follow this and we email personally - YOU KNOW I have had my low moments the last few weeks!  VERY LOW - but I'm determined to KEEP THE FAITH.

thanks for listening and reading my babble for the day!
God bless you all
Gail