Tuesday, May 03, 2011

a sad day - saying no to a referral

well I think I posted a week or so ago about a little boy that was emailed to our agency - anyhow that referral came up for Craig and I!  Anyhow - I hate to report that after MUCH prayer and conversation, and research talking to some doctors and other people - we have decided this little boy isn't meant for our family.  as much as I tried all weekend to picture this beautiful little guy in my arms, in our family -I couldn't.  but in my dreams I saw him with his mom - it wasn't me!  I can picture this woman very clearly - and I bless her for taking little "A" - he's beautiful and looks so sweet - he deserves her as his forever mother!  I just hope she finds him soon!

anyhow - it was NOT an easy choice - but there were things involved that we just needed to say no and think about Nate and the future of both kids - way into their adult lives.

after going through all this - its difficult to say no to a child!  I never thought this was going to be easy - but never this hard - I knew I'd fall for any child by looking at their picture.

anyhow I appreciate the agency for allowing us to consider "A" and to see his beautiful face - I know they will find him HIS family!  and they will all be happy.

we continue to wait for our referral -we're still probably #15 or 16 on the waiting list - and that's fine.

thanks for the prayers.
gail

1 comment:

The McDades said...

Hi Gail,
I know you are sad right now, but you will get your little boy soon. He will fit in so good with your family and you will be glad you turned this referral down. Just keep picturing him with his mom and knowing that he will have a family soon. You are in my prayers!! Just keep the faith and keep going!!! You will get your little guy soon!